I did not know loving you so much could turn to this,
I don’t know when this love turned to jealousy,
I don’t know when I became this dangerous,
That I could kill to keep any other woman away from you,
I broke all your relations,
Family, friends, women and men alike,
Now they avoid you like a plague,
For they fear what I would do to them.
I’m sorry I allowed myself to be consumed by love,
It overtook my mind and will,
It turned into fear and obsession,
I could not fathom a life without you,
I could not imbibe the thought of losing you.
I have learnt my lesson,
I have learnt to control myself,
Night after night,
I have cried myself to sleep,
I will do all I can to keep away from your friends,
I will make it up to you, I promise,
We have built this for years,
Please don’t trash it yet,
I have changed for you,
I promise I have,
Just give me another chance,
And I will prove to that you were right,
When you chose to love me when you did,
You won’t regret.
©Anita W.